Welcome to AA

I hesitate to write this because I really don't want to jinx anything, but I have been running lately. On the treadmill, in intervals, walk 2 minutes run 2 minutes, for 30 minutes total. Sounds lame but let me tell you why this is a big deal. I am fat. Not just overweight but borderline morbidly obese. Seriously. That is where I fall on all the charts. When I step on the Wii fit board it goes "oh!" like it is surprised. When it weighs me the music may as well be a death march. "dun duh dundun dun dun". Oh and I hate running. We have a long history and I have always hated it.

It's ok. I know it. I am tired of it. Hence the running.

I can blame it on the 4 babies, but there is a lot more to it than that. I have basically had a sedentary life style for most of my life. I did exercise sporadically through out, but never enough to make a huge difference. I would lose 10 or 15 pounds at a time then slowly put it back on with 5 or 10 more. Exercise was never a huge part of my life and never encouraged as such either.

I danced when I was young. We moved when I was 8 and so I never really started again.

I played soccer for 5 years. I was the goalie because I was too lazy to run all over the field.

I started running track once but never made it to a meet because I found out I hated running and it really hurt my knees. (I have since been to a podiatrist and found out the problem is in my feet not my knees, so now it does not hurt. Not that way anyway.)

I have big boobs. Not conducive to running.

I bought a good sports bra, I got orthodox, I bought new shoes, I have a gym membership. So now I run. I am a runner. I have done it enough times to say I am one. Not a fast one and not long distance, but a runner just the same.

I run because it is the best way I know how to lose weight. Have you ever seen a fat runner? Besides at the gym? You do it enough for a long enough time and you are bound to become thin. I figure it may take me a year, but eventually I will run all the fat off. I don't want to be 40 and fat. I figure I better start now.

How nice will that be? I will know one day. I will keep you posted on my running.

p.s. secretly I have always wanted to be a runner...I just pretended I didn't.

My dream...

I have a dream that one day my kids will be able to replicate a clean room. Quickly and quietly with no whining.

I have a dream that I won't care so much if wax spills on the carpet because it is my carpet to worry about.

I have a dream that people will realize that 10% is not a generous tip and they are not doing me a favor.

I have a dream that deadlines are more like future guidelines to look to, but never miss.

I have a dream of a restful night with no interruptions by children and especially not barking dogs.

I have a dream of peaceful days with lots of compromise and no arguing over toys or messes or the last bag of fruit snacks.

I have a dream of short and concise meetings.

I have a dream of a smaller, more energetic version of myself.

I have a dream of college education, mission calls and temple marriages.

I have a dream of far away lands just waiting to be explored.

I have a dream of long days of just me and Ry doing whatever our heart desires...